November 8th, 2006

Security: Subject: ...thank you Nat!! Time: 10:00 am

Wow. Lol. Nat reminded me that I had an LJ and thus, my search for it begun...with..lots of missing passwords and too many emails >.> Nevermind. I have my LJ back! Wheeeee....okayokay before I start going crazy here, I must..MUST..re-read my LJ =P Ta-ta!

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March 18th, 2005

Current Music: Simple Plan - Addicted Security: Subject: Over him!!!! *cheers* Time: 10:07 am Current Mood: accomplished

thank you every single one of you for being there for me!!! ^_^ i am finally over Aaron! Well..after hearing what Weng Chong and Wei Hao said about him...my god...i feel like he is SUCH a bastard! He's no better than KL...just that KL gets his girls. Aaron doesn't! xDDD Seriously....KL is much better looking than this scum. *shrugz0r* =P yay...*is even more addicted to the song Addicted now* heart-breaker...*nods* its the perfect title for him...see...Aaron flirts with a girl..when the girl falls in love with him..he will leave and find another girl. tell me. is he a jerk or not. -_-" his next victim...Shauna. But then...im not gonna do anything about it even though i love shauna. she has to learn it herself. her relationship with Dion (another bastard) should have taught her a lesson. lets see if she learnt it well. =)

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March 16th, 2005

Current Music: Eminem - Mocking Bird Security: Subject: So lost and confused...and just...argh! Time: 09:27 am Current Mood: depressed

i put on masks and hide my true feelings... i told Celeste that I wouldn't care if Aaron and Shauna really got together... but the truth is... i would care. i would mind. i don't want to care nor even bother a bit, but i can't... whenever i think of him and her, my chest and stomach would feel so tight....so so tight, and so would my throat. i don't wanna feel this way... gawd i feel like i'm gonna explode. not out of happiness...i dont know either. i just feel like exploding... no one in church is there for me...no one truly understands me... those who understand me are so far away...and some are busy...some are depressed as well...its just terrible... everybody is in pain. the world is in pain. i'm in pain. you're in pain... i can just imagine my heart right now... slowly shattering and cracking... small shards dropping off, letting the blood drip out... *sighs* nothing's been going right... i've been doing wrong things...too many... God, you once said all these were tests to mould us...but you know something? I can't take it anymore...please let me fail this test...? i'm really slowly breaking down already...and if this gonna go on, i dont know what ima do... everytime i see the pen-knife, i really really wanna take it up and just scar my arm to relieve all the emotional pains...physical pain overtakes emotional pain doesn't it...? oh sheesh...what am i do to now...my life's a mess. a total total mess...

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March 14th, 2005

Current Music: Simple Plan - Addicted To You Security: Subject: So confused and troubled...sighness... Time: 11:26 pm Current Mood: depressed

hi people...*wavesth* oh god..im so troubled and sad and...gah! i really really find no meaning in this life anymore...everything is so stressful!!! School, friends, church, family....! everything! ya know...im gonna break down sooner or later...-_-" the worst thing is...somebody, who is part of this depression thing...is not helping at all! Aaron...I'm fine if you don't like me, cuz I don't care about that...all I want you to do is treat me like a normal friend! You said we could be friends. so fine! be one...!! you're always like this....! giving people false hope! i though I could finally talk to you like how I would talk to a normal good friend...but then what...you give me this stupid treatment now...? The way you look at me...the way you talk to me...i dont get it! you just seem as if I owe you something...! can't you just tell me everything? can't you just tell me the truth? why must you torment me like this! You know if I really DO have lupus....i don't have my whole life to wait for you to tell me the truth!! I'm sorry if i hurt you bad in the beginning...im sorry if i betrayed your trust back then...okay? i know you're aware of this already but still i must say it...i would do ANYTHING to just turn back time and do what my heart told me to do... you don't know how much stress i've been through just becuase of you...but then you'll never know anyway. why? cuz you don't even care. you don't even care about me now! i mean...is this really what a friend is? if thats so...then fine. i have nothing to say. but no!! friends care and love each other! they don't abandon you like this! i mean look at amanda!! she abandoned me...!! only when she needs me then does she come to me...i hate her for that okay?! I've had enough of being a spare-tyre...enough is enough... i really don't know what to do right now...i just feel so...depressed...sad...lonely...dead...its like my soul is sleeping. or maybe its dead. i'm just a walking corpse right now...and i dont even know if i can be revived... go on. lead that happy life of yours. go fall for Shauna. i dont mind. i dont care. im dead in ur eyes anyway. -_-"

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March 9th, 2005

Current Music: Simple Plan - Perfect Security: Subject: peekaboo...? xD Time: 02:37 pm Current Mood: amused

wooohooo! i'm back ppl...! for those who wondered where i've been to... i've been blogging at blogspot. lol...but now i'm back! why? *gets all angelic faced* xDD so that my darling xewy can read. lol...that poor baby. she could not read my blog at all. *pat pat* she and her computer. *laughs* so how have you people been! i missed ya all! *huggle huggle* my days have been so tiring and troublesome and just..ugh!!! i just hate life....its so....sheeshz0r... but then..i'm pretty fine now. =) alright peeeps...im gonna move on to doing my other stuffs now...have fun! study hard! love you peeps! *kisses* =)

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December 30th, 2004

Security: Subject: Back from camp! hah! =D Time: 03:31 pm Current Mood: tired

hello people i missed you!! XD If you guys were wondering where I vanished to, I was at camp! duhZ! Well..fine..i abandoned my livejournal. so what. hah. ^_^" Anywayz! Camp was greaaaaaat! At first i was so hating camp. But then, I wanted to get away from someone and some thoughts so I went happily and yay! It was soooo fun. Most of the time it was super super super tiring though. I meeaaan...survival camp. duh. =/ okay..so..first day was...dinner. yea. porridge. yay. XP But it was kinda nice. ^^ okay..the sickening thing was..before food, worship and praise. after food, rest abit..worship and praise somemore...and on and on..so.its three times worship and praise..gawd u know how tiring it is to just stand there and sing and jump around going crazy?! *dies dies dies* sooo..we had fun anyway. ^^" Second day, we went treasure hunting around changi. oh maaan..it was so damn tiring lorh!!! Our route was soo criss cross...shit lorh. its so damned shit tiring. *sighs* Oh oh oh..we ran back to the chalet barefooted..XDD Joseph's idea. OH! JOSEPH! Haha..he's a great friend! Our group was called Peace and he was our leader. my gawd he's art is damn good lorh. He like..drew our Peace flag. The funny thing about our flag is...we had a words PEACE drawn nicely in the middle and the background was nice! ^^ And. We connected the flag to this green pole and had to carry it wherever we went. Man i tell u...we looked like those protestors...PEACE! PEACE! WE WANT PEACE! PEACE! PEACE! WE WANT PEACE! XDDDD okay! We went to pulau ubin on the third day to play. Damn fun. and damn tiring. Xiang, Priscilla and me sat at some auntie's stall, munching on chips and stuff. and and! Kampong coconuts with lots of juice and flesh. ah ah ah...inedible flesh. IT WAS SO HARD YOU COULD HARDLY SCRAPE IT OFF! *hurls spoon at auntie* >=( After pulau ubin we had to prepare for that night's skit. I acted as the sister. Jopseph was my brother. Zhen Xuan was my daddy, Xin Yi was my mommy and Priscilla was our half-sister. XDD Damn fun. "Neh neh...ni da wo!!!" { Neh neh...you hit meeee! ) XDDD Oh oh oh..we learnt something from teh camp....NEH NEH! XDDDD It's Ivan's fault!!!! He and his neh neh...lol..and Jasper's MAAAAAKIKO! *laughs* Crazy people i tell you...*points at nostrils* MAAAAAAKIKO. ^_^" After all the skits performed by us, Peace, Tolerance, Joy and Extraodinary, it was NIGHT WALK TIME!!!!! We went to see the chio bus of Changi!!! XDDD Man..they are so chio lorh...but their voice not chio... >< WE were like...omg..so chio..then he started speaking..and no..not chio..NOOOOOT chio. *pukes* they sound so man!!!!!! Wait. They are men! XDDD Oh oh.we didnt sleep the whole night. stayed up till dawn......*just dies* Anyway, i just got back and im so tired now, i cant concentrate on what to say anymore so i'll see you guys some other time okay? I love you all! Muah muah~

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December 20th, 2004

Security: Subject: oooh...vampires..wahaha Time: 08:43 pm

http://quiz.ravenblack.net/blood.pl?biter=Kuroda *evil crackle* I just loooove vampires...*winks* XD

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Security: Subject: I SWEAR I HATE ROACHES!!!! Time: 12:38 pm Current Mood: nervous

*wails* I hate roaches! I swear I'll destroy all roaches one day! Waaaah! Here's what happened...I was in my bathroom, when I something just made me turn to my left. There it was. A huge. HUGE. HUUUGE roach crawling down the wall, at my eye level. And my gawd...it was just a few inches away from me ho'kay!!!! After I stared at it wide-eyed for 2 split seconds, I bolted out of the door naked and quickly dressed while screaming madly at my daddy. He rolled his eyes and went in and saw me hopping wildly around the room and screaming about the roach. Then he laughed at me while killing the roach. Gawd...I still can't get over the shock....roach....roaches...>

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December 18th, 2004

Current Music: Avril Lavigne - My Happy Ending Security: Subject: vampire...*licks lips* Time: 10:43 pm Current Mood: naughty

*laughs* okay..i've been going nuts over vampires lately..^_^ I find them sooooooooo cool! Man..I'm getting more perverted as the days go by..*giggles* Teaching my friend how to nibble sweet spots on his girlfriend is perverted..yesh it is..^_^" You are Air. You are the vampire that gives people hope, you are a dreamer and love to be free. You have no worries and live life as you choose. You might want to come back down to earth a bit, and focus more on what you could do down here. You could also be the shy type, with problems but not showing them, try to let other people help you instead or carring the burden all alone. Please rate this quiz!!! What Element Would You Rule Over If You Were A Vampire? brought to you by Quizilla

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December 13th, 2004

Security: Subject: Sheeshz0r... Time: 02:21 pm Current Mood: blah

I just got the shock of my life... My female cat, Cali, actually squeezed her way to the back of my x-box!! *dies dies dies* I was like playing Ninja Gaiden and I wanted to switch games. But the moment I looked at the X-Box i saw two...big...eyes..staring at me. -_-" Sheesh I tell you! Sheesh! And now my darling dosen't want to come out of there. Fwa! *goes try to get her out somemore*

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